I accidentally stumbled upon your blog… and let me reiterate that it was ACCIDENTAL.. Well.. I typed a letter at the address box on chrome and your blog’s address appeared. .. Okay, so partially accidental.. I did press enter because I got curious about how you’re doing since you sometimes burst your tantrums, depressions, gladness and hmm.. Let’s just say, your blog is a salad of your emotions.
I haven’t heard from you in a while, which is something I prefer because I don’t really want to have anything to do with you anymore, it was a silly past that I boxed and sent as a relief to those who were in hunger for mournful stories and depressing fantasies.
Anyway, as the accident lead me to a discovery (about my own deep, personal and sacred thoughts! Some of it sacred, some of it are just plain trash, but thoughts are thoughts...) I had a modern family moment.
Back then, it was a catastrophic moment for me, maybe because it was really the first time I trusted someone so much without thinking that it was all a fallacy and everything was too good to be true. Sure I enjoyed our late night chat and everything that we talked about. I love that you shared your personal stuff with me and I really valued those times.
But now, I don’t care at all, do I care f you sleep well at night? Do I care if you have eaten? Do I care if you had a great day? Do I still yearn to talk to you? Well... That is debatable, because once a person has become a part of my life, I never forget, I still care, I always will. HOWEVER… the extension of care is limited to certain scenarios that are either life threatening, fatal and/ or of extreme importance, Maybe because once it all ended, the personal ties are cut and the only thing that binds us is the illusion of a silver lining beyond the sky… whatever that means.
I had a great laugh. It was something I never thought I can have back. I was so CRAZZZYYY! I was madly attached to you and everything seems like a tele-novela. I hate to admit that I am quite a love sick hopeless romantic when it comes to the things that I might have told you, GHAAD! The DRAMA!!!! I was shocked that I have it in me, and I had a great laugh because I write better than the script writers of walang hanggan! Talk about layers of cheese and corn!
I deleted everything, from our conversations, text messages to our chats and calls because I don’t want to be reminded of that time again, and sometimes, I don’t want to be reminded about you too.
I still think that your blog is awesome and that you are, as always, one of a kind, and I would like to think that it was more than an interesting experience knowing you… let me just say that it was magnificent, whimsical and worthwhile.
I have my laugh back and I can now share it with someone who can appreciate a great, wacky and uber tawanan…
Thank you for the fond memories :)